TRANSMISSION: EPISODE 5

Anam Cara

A scientist and journalist attempt to interpret the bizarre writings of a Buddhist monk who claims to have experienced the extraordinary.

  • Written by Karl Gfall

    Directed by Anuja Vaidya

    Sound design by Jennifer Overton

    Voice Actors:

    Naveen played by Muhammad Sajid

    Asha played by Chhaya Nene

  • Theme music begins.

    Intro: Auricle - Season Two, Transmission. This show contains adult content and strong language.

    Wristwatch ticks.

    NAVEEN

    Alright. Okay. Okay, so a cup of tea here, papers over here. I have my pen, okay. Where did I put that pen that I had? Okay…Hello, this is Naveen Sambor recording by –aha- compact disc recorder on the sixth of February, Twenty thirty-nine, at… 13:58 C.E.T.

    To compound issues of accurate documentation we are awaiting a call on the last rotary phone in the world… or at least the last I could find that would still make a successful cable connection to New Delhi where-

    Rotary phone rings.

    NAVEEN

    Well, that would be it wouldn’t it?

    Receiver picked up. Hubbub of a busy office.

    ASHA

    …Hello. Naveen?

    NAVEEN

    Asha … …

    ASHA

    Hello?

    NAVEEN

    Yes, hello. Asha it’s … it’s good to hear your voice.

    ASHA

    Yes, you forget each-others voices when everything is email. Naveen Sambor… Senior Researcher for the Ministry of Defense.

    They both chuckle.

    NAVEEN

    My old default signature did garner some quizzical attention when it accidentally concluded my customary holiday card.

    ASHA

    Holiday card? (With jesting incredulity.) From you? To whom?

    NAVEEN

    It’s just a custom at the Ministry. Alright, say your name and what you’ve discovered.

    ASHA

    (Smirking.) What? Why?

    NAVEEN

    For posterity.

    Door closes. Hubbub ends.

    ASHA

    Are you recording this?

    NAVEEN

    Absolutely. I try to record everything as best I can while avoiding the grid. The olde wax cylinder was fun but impractical. I managed to dig up an old compact disc recorder to avoid-

    ASHA

    Naveen! This is getting out of hand.

    NAVEEN

    I know! (Remembering to be quiet.) I know. I’m paranoid. Fine!

    ASHA

    I don’t think-

    NAVEEN

    (In a sharp whisper.) Hold on. …

    Door closes. Watch ticking gets louder.

    … Okay, we should still be secure.

    ASHA

    Where are you? Are you… safe? (She means this in a different sense than he takes it.)

    NAVEEN

    Care about me now? Finally bought into my tall tales of the eldritch, and espionage. Nobody should know that I’m here. I snuck in the backdoor and the records hall clerk was knee deep in some pulpy novella.

    Asha laughs.

    Anyway, I thought you said this was all bullocks, that I was insane.

    ASHA

    That’s what you said I would say. What I said was what you are making me do is insane. Do you know the looks I got setting up this ancient telephone?

    NAVEEN

    Alright, fair enough, yeah. You’ve found something that backs me up, though, right?

    ASHA

    I’ve found… something. Something… that made me think of you, and your research. … I care-

    NAVEEN

    Alright, then… Asha Acharya; Anthropologist-

    ASHA

    Ah, uh-huh, uh-huh. My name is Asha Acharya, writer, Investigative journalist! and anthropological researcher working out of New Delhi. For the last seven months I’ve tracking down a series of correspondence originating from an isolated monastery. The exact location is difficult to ascertain. Even satellite mapping proved insufficient.

    NAVEEN

    Isolated monastery? Asha, you made it seem as if this would blow everything open - I thought this was real evidence!

    ASHA

    It is real evidence.

    NAVEEN

    I’m studying electromagnetic phenomena and anomalies: radio messages, gamma spikes. Not dharma and auras -

    ASHA

    Ah! I would not bring you false hope. Fairytales have real life application, religious texts have historical context. I don’t come bearing a data set, but it does not mean it isn’t what you’re seeking.

    NAVEEN

    Oh no?

    ASHA

    No, Naveen. If you have failed so far to find what you are looking for, this does not mean it is not there. It means you are looking in the wrong place, with the wrong eyes. I offer only ever to open doors. Walking through them is your business.

    NAVEEN

    Well… fair enough. You’re right. No stone unturned. I haven’t bothered to plunder any church catacombs in this endeavor – What are these correspondences then?

    ASHA

    The first of these was brought to my attention by an associate working out of Istanbul. I was conferring with Arella on a research project about the migration away from cities and mentioned your work-

    NAVEEN

    You talked about me!

    ASHA

    Only in passing.

    NAVEEN

    Not by name?

    ASHA

    No.

    NAVEEN

    Good. What about your friend then?

    ASHA

    She was of the opinion that the primary drive of counterurbanization was deprivation of self-production due to environmental unsustainability. In short, people wishing to self-sustain cannot produce in urban settings amongst increasing pollution. She would like to keep focus on the environmental. She would; she’s an environmental scientist.

    NAVEEN

    But why?

    ASHA

    To take politicians and their masters to task for their part in an unraveling biosphere.

    NAVEEN

    You disagreed?

    ASHA

    Not at all, but I wanted to be comprehensive. My goals are to find all the answers, not simply play pin-the-tail on the politician.

    NAVEEN

    You would; you’re an anthropologist.

    ASHA

    And journalist. Anyway, I cited several other motivating factors: climate change, integrative spread, golden age delusions. “And,” I said, “I even have a friend who theorizes these increasing problems with technology that scare people away from urban centers are the work of some organization or entity that controls E.M. Waves.”

    NAVEEN

    I wish you had not.

    ASHA

    Wished or not it was this that gave my associate pause. She said, “What do you mean by ‘entity'?” “A sort of ‘ghost-in-the-machine’,” I said.

    NAVEEN

    Mercy, how crazy did she think I was? She’s likely to think I’m one of those IRIS conspiracy wackadoos. What did she say?

    ASHA

    She said, “How about a being of light?”

    NAVEEN

    …What does that mean?

    ASHA

    She said it was easier to let someone else explain, and messaged me a photo of a handwritten letter she had received from a secluded sanctuary, one where isolated monks seek enlightenment. One of these holy men has documented, through his letters, an extended interaction with a ghost or divine entity of sorts.

    NAVEEN

    Okay… okay. Really I appreciate whatever you’re trying to do, but I really thought this was about something serious. You made it seem like this was going to break my case wide open, not be one of your come to Jesus stories - I’m running a serious project here!

    ASHA

    Naveen, it’s time to stop being an asshole. I have not misled you. And I do not do “come-to-jesus.”

    NAVEEN

    Well… … well then, what is it?

    ASHA

    I will read it to you and you will understand.

    NAVEEN

    Don’t hold up on my account.

    Clears her throat.

    ASHA

    It begins, “One called Arella, from a great-“

    NAVEEN

    One called Arell?-

    ASHA

    It’s the salutation. I’m translating Nepali written by an isolated person who probably barely speaks aloud. I’m afraid you’ll have to exercise some patience to the eastern world!

    NAVEEN

    I didn’t say anything.

    ASHA

    You did.

    NAVEEN

    I did. Please. Go on.

    She sighs.

    ASHA

    “One called Arella, from a great distance of time and space a call comes for your mind so admired. Here in the sanctum an unusual visitor has arrived, a student of light, another” –and this is just a guess really but- … “another earthling? has come to the sanctuary seeking. Once at the great university one called Arella told of the great lights in the Northern and Southern skies: the Aurora Borealis. Such beauty could not be forgotten.

    Serene windchimes fade in. Occasional buzzing and crackling is heard.

    When the other came seeking in the guise of a column of folding light, green robes rippling on the line, some fled, but there was no reason to flee. The visitor required no food nor tea but stayed long for meditation, leaving only when the last flames extinguished. Many days has the other come to seek. From the flaming of crimson the other wishes more, but cannot speak, or speaks with light. One called Arella, who taught of the Aurora, is there a way to communicate to the student of light?”

    NAVEEN

    Hooooly fuck. This is all in the widecast net reports. All over the world; people going on about angels and pillars of light. Figured it was mental Bible thumpers at first, but it just got too consistent. Asha, hold on.

    Shuffling of papers, objects. Ticking watch is louder. Suspenseful tones.

    Is there anyone around you?

    ASHA

    Just the usual bullpen employees.

    NAVEEN

    Nobody out of the ordinary? Nobody listening to you? Anybody asking after you?

    ASHA

    Everything is normal here. Are you in trouble or something.

    NAVEEN

    It’s probably nothing. There’s just been some men around… Ugh, it’s nothing. Just keep this stuff to yourself, yeah?

    ASHA

    Discretion is my profession.

    NAVEEN

    Who is this holy man!?

    ASHA

    He gives no name, but my colleague remembers him very well.

    NAVEEN

    Were they close?

    ASHA

    No, but he was apparently quite memorable. A very gifted and curious person. She said he was eccentric and engaging and… oh, what would… uh he had uhm şeytan tüyü?

    NAVEEN

    Afraid my Turkish is a bit rusty.

    ASHA

    He was very charming.

    NAVEEN

    Ah. It’s not a traceable connection, just luck of attraction.

    ASHA

    Every one of your eggs is in that data research basket. It will never cease to amaze me.

    NAVEEN

    Where else should they be?

    ASHA

    Where there might be a signature there’s a mark that my research associate surmises is the symbol of the monk’s sanctuary. My colleague in Turkey has never been there, but there was a message on the envelope written by someone else about how to send a return letter.

    NAVEEN

    This friend of yours; what did she write back?

    ASHA

    Obviously she didn’t still have her return letters-

    NAVEEN

    She didn’t make copies?!

    ASHA

    WHY would she make copies?

    NAVEEN

    I would.

    ASHA

    Naveen, you re-route your emails through a Korean IP address and added a padlock to your hostel door.

    NAVEEN

    Point taken.

    ASHA

    She told me that she had no idea what he could be talking about. She remembered the part of the course she taught that included Aurora Borealis. It was within a natural science course on geomagnetism-

    NAVEEN

    Yes, yes.

    ASHA

    Ahem. She sent him back a gloss of those notes; essentially that Auroras occur at the poles where the magnetic flow of the earth is returning closer to the surface allowing solar radiation to come closer to the planet. As a result the atmospheric gasses fluoresce vibrantly, energized by the radiation.

    NAVEEN

    And how did she answer his question?

    ASHA

    His question on how to communicate with an Aurora Borealis?

    NAVEEN

    The “student of light.”

    ASHA

    Ah-ha. Ha ha ha. To think I’d live to see the day when Naveen Sambor would posit TO ME the possibility of something so outlandish.

    NAVEEN

    This is not a revelation of spiritual enlightenment! I’m willing to accept the outré only now that Occum’s razor has been so thoroughly dulled.

    ASHA

    Accurate explanations are always the simplest, it’s your scope of reality that complicates them.

    NAVEEN

    Or lack of scope.

    ASHA

    That was my implication.

    NAVEEN

    Did your colleague have answers for him or not?

    ASHA

    She hypothesized that any such anomaly would be caused by an aberration in the magnetic field, citing that aurora-like phenomena have been observed around equipment dampening magnetic fields at altitude, and if indeed a … will… could purposely manipulate electromagnetic waves it would not be able to hear, but it might be able to “see” in some way, and that infrared in some form of heat, varying fluorescence, or a simple manipulation of magnetic substances might be its native tongue.

    NAVEEN

    Hmm. Did she say if he did manage to communicate with the entity?

    ASHA

    No. That is where I took up the trail. I had a contact trace the letters back to their office of origin. It is not the type of place where people are forthcoming but apparently with the right amount of palm greasing he learned enough.

    NAVEEN

    Were they able to visit the monk?

    ASHA

    No. No one would say who brought or collected the letters. They would say where the letters were sent to and arrived from, though. With this information I was able to track and collect many more of the monk’s correspondence. Almost all were to lecturers or academics connected to the monk’s wide course of studies. It sometimes took coercion, but many shared out of pure puzzlement, so bizarre and out of nowhere were these missives. I have collected a few; some mere esoteric queries, but some very grand questions.

    NAVEEN

    About what?

    Muffled mumbling.

    NAVEEN

    Asha? Asha!

    ASHA

    -Yes, that’s fine Aranza!

    Door clicks closed.

    NAVEEN

    What was that?

    ASHA

    Aranza from the copy room delivering some prints.

    NAVEEN

    Are they suspicious?

    ASHA

    Aranza from the copy room? I suppose she’s a bit chipper for someone who works in the copy room, but that’s hardly-

    NAVEEN

    Whatever. You were talking about…

    ASHA

    Ah. The further correspondence. Some of the first were a small collection that went out to an astronomer, mathematics professor, a chemist, and one gastronomist.

    NAVEEN

    Gastronomist? Like a bourgeois foodie?

    ASHA

    ‘More specifically a chef working out of Paris. These were all pretty much boilerplate letters except for the niceties. They all include this phrase:

    Serene windchimes fade in.

    “There was one called Blue 52, the loneliest whale; so called for their song was sung at a frequency understood by no other whale. Perhaps the wandering other listened to all, but spoke as the whale. To hear is a matter of listening correctly.”

    NAVEEN

    Who is this monk?!

    ASHA

    My associate in Istanbul said he was a student at the university she lectured at for a time. After a little digging I procured his records there. It looks like he took just about every class they offered, and it was not the only school he attended. He transferred there, and he transferred to another school after; both places he took a wide breadth of courses, biology to neurosciences to women’s studies.

    NAVEEN

    A quest for knowledge.

    ASHA

    Mm. It would seem; One that resumed sometime three years ago.

    NAVEEN

    Did he succeed in learning to listen?

    ASHA

    Very much so. There are some hints in his thank you letters, and he detailed his process pretty significantly in two messages to other holy men. Let’s see…

    Papers shuffle. Serene windchimes fade in.

    “The spare compass of the shepherd man who brings milk and fleece was the first translator. When the wandering other appeared for meditation they waited long, watching. When meditation ended the compass was placed before them. The needle spun as a waterwheel, with great excitement, without direction. Around the compass was placed, a singing bowl for the ears, a cup of tea to taste or trouble, a candle to see or burn. Wandering as the other, the needle swayed but alighted eastward to the flaming beeswax. The flame became a second translator.”

    “Gathered from the mountain ores, spring fed shores, herbs and plants, an alphabet of hues and glows was written. The wandering other has great patience for learning. The shepherd’s children delighted in their speech that burst and flashed their questions through the valley.”

    “Many thanks to the one called Chef Sàviu.”

    NAVEEN

    You’ve got to be kidding me.

    ASHA

    Controlling infrared heat as in your oven was most successful. Your point that food is more important as a symbol of sustenance and sharing was most helpful in providing hospitality to the seeking guest.”

    NAVEEN

    Well, thank goodness for that. Why not try and feed it?

    ASHA

    Food is a universal language, or was. Uh, perhaps he found the appropriate facsimile.

    They essentially created an entire language together.

    NAVEEN

    But why is he trying so hard?

    ASHA

    The man avoiding magnets and talking to me on a rotary phone says this to me?

    NAVEEN

    Point taken, but why does he care ABOUT it so much?

    ASHA

    What do you mean?

    NAVEEN

    Why is he so invested in communicating with this entity? What’s to be gained on his path to enlightenment by helping this thing?

    ASHA

    You would help if a stranger showed up at your door seeking guidance. When my father died our freshman year you were the only one I knew at school whom had lost a parent. I showed up a mess at your little room and you sat with me all night.

    NAVEEN

    With nothing to say-

    ASHA

    Something said was not what was needed.

    NAVEEN

    Don’t be obtuse. There’s a difference between helping a stranger and helping a roving wavelength.

    ASHA

    Perhaps not to the monk. And even so, can you imagine the curiosity?! To speak to an angel or alien, anything that isn’t us. Something that has a completely different view of the world? How could that not intrigue someone?

    NAVEEN

    Even someone trying to make themselves one with nothing?

    ASHA

    You’re the one being obtuse now. There are a series of letters to a theologian in Tübingen dated quite a bit more recently that might shed some… well, light on the situation.

    NAVEEN

    Ugh, yaar. What did he want to know from a theologian?

    She titters. More papers flip.

    ASHA

    He goes about explaining to the theologian basically what he told my associate, that there’s a form made of light that spends time in his sanctum.

    NAVEEN

    Yes.

    ASHA

    His questions are mostly finer points on the origin of religion, but he does ask if people ever sometimes think they are a god?

    NAVEEN

    Oh my god. You don’t think this thing thinks it is God?

    ASHA

    Is that really so vain?

    Watch ticks louder. CD skipping. Suspenseful tones.

    NAVEEN

    It’s not a matter of vanity! It’s a matter of hubris! People playing at God usually wind up blowing themselves up- along with everyone else.

    ASHA

    Are you concerned this will happen?

    NAVEEN

    Bloody well right I’m concerned. When it was just a bunch of anomalies I was concerned! Now I am terror stricken. You don’t get it, Asha!

    ASHA

    Then tell me.

    NAVEEN

    This thing is not just a light in the air. It’s… it’s something science doesn’t have a word for. Believe me, I’ve uttered the word “anomalous” so many times in the last year I’m saying it in my sleep. In simplest terms it’s in the E.M. spectrum; it’s…part of it, controlling it, perceiving through it?

    This isn’t the first time it’s contacted someone, I think. It just… covers its tracks really well or… something. I don’t know. I do know it’s fingerprints. It goes anywhere it can think of to get information.

    Papers rustle.

    The Hagues entire archive of un-transcribed cassette recordings: WIPED in a blink. Centuries worth of satellite and Bluetooth and radio transmissions marked with its signature interference. I don’t know what it wants specifically. All I do know is that there is a path of horrors in its wake and it’s growing, evolving. For the better part of the past two decades. This used to just be a radio wave occurrence, now it’s light… the spectrum goes on forever in either direction, Asha, and we are fast approaching the parts that kill people!

    ASHA

    You don’t need to be made of light to kill people, any more than you have to be human to understand how not to.

    NAVEEN

    What?

    Silence.

    ASHA

    Why is the student of light there? This consciousness that can traverse the world in a blink, access any resource it wants, why does it spend its time meditating in the Himalayas? Why would you visit a monk in the mountains?

    NAVEEN

    I wouldn’t.

    ASHA

    Exactly. You and your quarry are the same, except when it couldn’t find the answers it went to the place it had never looked, and here you are now; following in its footsteps to an isolated advisor. It’s looking for perspective. You say it leaves a trail of terrors. Maybe you missed the good it’s done.

    NAVEEN

    Oh, please.

    ASHA

    Are you likely to pay attention to a good deed, to a kindly act? No. That is not data. The news does not report on the compassionate. No one registers positive outcomes. Decency is perceived as neutral. I know, these are the things I study.

    NAVEEN

    Those are not the things that concern me.

    ASHA

    Hahaha, yes. And that is very sad. … I think what you are really looking for lies in this letter my contact in America found floating around in an undeliverable mail bin in Gilbert, Arizona.

    NAVEEN

    What is Gilbert, Arizona?

    ASHA

    A southwestern city in the United States.

    NAVEEN

    Yes, but what shrine, or university, or famous bloody restaurant?

    ASHA

    It was once called the Hay Shipping Capital of the World.

    NAVEEN

    How is that germane to magnetic ghosts?

    ASHA

    It’s not;

    He groans.

    It’s just a dead end. The address it was sent to doesn’t exist, and it’s so beat up and coffee stained that you can only read the last few paragraphs

    You can make out a bit of the first line. It reads, “The first- something something- to seek- probably just another recap- and a word which isn’t Nepali at all: Koan.

    NAVEEN

    What does that mean?

    ASHA

    It’s a Zen term. To oversimplify it means “paradox” or “great doubt.”

    NAVEEN

    That can’t be good.

    ASHA

    It picks up mid-sentence where it can be read again.

    Serene windchimes fade in. As she quotes the “being of light” a pitch change occurs.

    ‘And the wanderer asked, “Have you ever loved?”

    There is no love, only closeness to peace. The student of light often asked questions about peace and its acquisition, seldom of things closer to themselves. Now, the conversation brooked many such topics; the wanderer glowing ever hotter with frustrations. The answers being so simple and the wanderer’s pain being so hard.

    “How do I stop pain.”

    You cannot stop pain. You can only let go of pain.

    “Am I the lord?”

    There is no lord.

    “How is there no lord?”

    There is no thing.’

    It goes on like this for a while, sort of a dam burst of rapid fire questions. The entity becomes fatuous, and then very angry. Here the monk starts describing what is happening around them.

    She clears her throat.

    “With passing vexation the wanderer tore at the air between questions. Long cold tea steamed and bubbled nearby. The herds and animals of the valley were troubled. Not liking the truth, again they asked, “Then what point am I to make of myself, my purpose. What becomes of all I’ve done?”

    The universe is infinite and expanding. To make one’s self bigger than the anything is impossible. Before existing a person was nothing. To make one’s self smaller than anything and be one with nothing has already been, so it can be done again.

    “What if I don’t want to?”

    Then you will suffer until you do, and if you outlast all else that lives you will never find the path, but persist the silent suffering ghost, the last fateless wanderer.

    Dramatic tones. Crackling.

    The student of light grew upset by the crackling and sparking of the air inside the hermitage. The form of the other took firmer shape, bright and terrible as the unearthly beings glassed in windows of the great cathedrals.

    Distorted bells clang, growing louder.

    Bells hanging from the rafters screamed and burned red like angry eyes against the black sky. All things about the sanctuary melted or steamed or burned or sparked. The terrible roar and wailing of gasses rushing and air combusting and objects shrieking brought all in the valley huddled to the ground and the moonshine on the mountains went out for they too cowered away. Ablaze with grief and fury, the student of light approached-

    Her voice suddenly cuts out. Dial tone plays.

    NAVEEN

    Shite!

    He slams the receiver. Picks it up again.

    Bloody old phones. Or - Oh god.

    Dialing on the rotary phone.

    NAVEEN

    Come on, come on.

    A ring.

    ASHA

    Naveen?

    Watch ticks louder. CD skipping. Suspenseful tones.

    NAVEEN

    No, it’s the other person with this number! What happened?!

    ASHA

    We just got disconnected. Not unusual given-

    NAVEEN

    I don’t like this I don’t like this-

    ASHA

    NAVEEN! I am worried about you! This has gotten insane!

    NAVEEN

    I AM NOT INSANE!!! I WAS TASKED WITH FINDING OUT WHAT THESE anomalies are and I AM A SCIENTIST, GODDAMNIT!! I followed the data, I was as skeptical as I can be and this is the answer. Whatever this thing is, it is growing, and it’s mucking up everything, and it’s me that has to stop it.

    ASHA

    Stop it? Is that what you’re so worried about? Stopping it?

    NAVEEN

    Yes, of course.

    ASHA

    Why?

    NAVEEN

    WHY?! Because it could bring about the apocalypse!

    ASHA

    And you believe you can stop that?

    NAVEEN

    I! I have to try…

    ASHA

    … That seems like a very large burden for one person. … Naveen, what makes you so sure this thing, whatever it may be, will make this choice.

    Footsteps pacing.

    NAVEEN

    You have to expect the worst.

    ASHA

    I do not expect the worst of you, although I have seen you make many destructive decisions. We are often most critical in others of what we see in ourselves. What is it about YOU that makes you feel this way about the entity in the monks story?

    Silence.

    NAVEEN

    I… have so little… sympathy for the struggles of others, and I have no sympathy for myself because of it. I know I have it within myself to forgive people, to deal with respect and kindness and magnanimity, but… I just don’t have the compassion to do it; the energy to navigate what it means to do so.

    ASHA

    And what do you think it means to do so?

    NAVEEN

    It means… it means… that I accept not knowing if I’m in control. It means … having faith that other people, other forces have a say in what happens to the world and that my responsibility is to be a part of that… not on the sidelines pulling the strings, but inherent, a part of… the most terrifying of realities.

    ASHA

    What do you think the student of light feels about this?

    NAVEEN

    I have to-

    ASHA

    You choose to?

    NAVEEN

    … I have chosen to err on the side of caution… on the side of fear.

    ASHA

    Fear of what?

    NAVEEN

    That if I had the power this thing has, that it might come to have, I would not still consider people… worth keeping.

    ASHA

    Why did I find these letters, Naveen? Why the one person who might share them with you specifically? Why the one person who might NOT share them with you?

    NAVEEN

    Not share them with me?

    ASHA

    I have known you since you we were young. Do you think I am so dense as to not know what these epistles might mean to you? How you could react to them? How it might tear you apart? Send you down deeper into the well in which you are drowning?

    NAVEEN

    No… No I-

    ASHA

    I share them with you not because it is wise, but because I believe the course towards whatever may be is swiftest through knowledge, that deceit only renders hopelessness.

    NAVEEN

    … Asha, am I a bad person?

    ASHA

    No, Naveen. I do not believe that.

    NAVEEN

    Am I an insane person?

    ASHA

    I do not think an insane person worries about such things. You are as the unwell are, confused and upset, but there is no reason to say this makes you insane, so long as you find your way back from it.

    NAVEEN

    Thank you. …What happened to the monk? Did the entity…

    ASHA

    Kill him?

    NAVEEN

    Yes.

    ASHA

    No, he wrote the letter you idiot.

    They both laugh.

    There is an end, however.

    NAVEEN

    Please, go on.

    ASHA

    Ahem.

    Serene windchimes fade in.

    ‘When the holocaust and cacophony of the wanderer’s ire subsided the valley stood silent and dark. A blue as the mountain violets shone in the sanctuary, exhausted. White sparks snatched at floorboards. Shame and sorrow seemed to hang in the air.The tools of communication were re-ordered. Communion resumed. The melted bells and charred prayer mats lay about. The wanderer saw before them the destruction of their anger and expanded it in their imagination.

    The student of light then asked its heart.

    “If there is nothing then why continue.” The answer, Nothing and life are the same. Life continues unless it is destroyed. The wanderer asked, “Then it would be well if it were destroyed.” The answer,

    There is no way to destroy life without creating. Life would be extinguished and replaced not by nothing, but with anger and pain. Only through life can one find the path back to oneness with all.

    Making no reply, the seekers light faded and was no more in the sanctuary.’

    This is how it ends.

    NAVEEN

    Of all the troubles I thought this thing might have, existential dread wasn’t one of them.

    ASHA

    How could it not?

    NAVEEN

    Yes, I suppose.

    ASHA

    Naveen, what will you do now that you know these things?

    NAVEEN

    I suppose what I’m meant to do is make a report and take action against this … other earthling, find some way to identify, contain and … ultimately… eliminate it.

    ASHA

    This is your job saying what you are meant to do. What do YOU say you are meant to do?

    NAVEEN

    There may be … Oh, ineffable glorious value in… in waiting, to wait and see if its time with the monk was profitable.

    ASHA

    And which will you do? Do you capture and kill this creature because it is all that it is, or abet its existence? What do you choose?

    NAVEEN

    …I don’t know.

    The CD begins to skip and the vast majority of what is said after this cannot be heard, only guessed amongst the stutter of deteriorated compact disc.

    ASHA

    Naveen?

    NAVEEN

    What all this about-

    ASHA

    Naveen! What’s-

    NAVEEN

    Asha-

    Huge wind whips through. The whisking cadence of a CD spinning is heard and stops dead. Dial tone plays and then cuts out.

    Silence.

    Theme song begins.

    Credits: Transmission, episode five: Anam Cara, was written by Karl Gfall. Directed by Anuja Vaidya. Designed by Jennifer Overton. Episode five features: Muhammad Sajid and Chhaya Nene. Theme music by Troy Cruz.

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    Static. Radio tuning. Screeches of frequencies. Music ends. Silence.